Just before I close my eyes, and open them the next day, my thoughts drift back to you. Your face whether it was sad or joyous too hard for me to describe, your eyes that sparked with amusement everytime I was with you and your radiant smile, everytime I saw it I would feel light inside no matter what I had felt throughout the day you could always lift me up.
When you cried I wanted to be there, to comfort you no matter how far the distance, whether you were right next door or halfway across the world. When you had something great happen to you that day, I loved how I was the first one that you rang up or ran to find and tell. I couldnt tell what it was back then.
Everyday, when I see your picture, everytime I hear your name. Even when people call their friends I look around, hoping that it would be you. But then, every single time, when I'm wrong, I hate myself for thinking that you would still be with me, because now all you are is a distant memory, of fond times and a shared love and loss. The saviour to my darkness, and the oppressor of my pain, you were my World, my Life, my Everything.
That's what Love feels like to me. And no matter how many times I try to forget, there's no denying what I feel inside. I Miss You and one day, I'll be with you, somewhere, no matter how.
With Love,
Song Lam
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Freedom
As I sat there, across from the man who held my life within his hands. That key was all that kept me in these chains that held me down.. He noticed my wistful gaze on his right hand and smmile slowly.. A smile that never reached his eyes. Slowly the key returned to his pocket, and slowly, deliberately he asked me...
"What Do You Want In Life? What Do You Hope To Achieve? What Would You Gain From Release?"
I thought carefully as I prepared my answer knowing that one word could send me back never to see the daylight again. Never to see Her again.... Then, the words formed on my lips and flowed out without effort...
"Love, Loss, Happiness And Grief, I've Had All Of Those, What I Want Now Is Freedom. To Soar Without Any Chains Bound To My Aching Feet, That Is My Only Desire"
As I said that, his face grew haggard and his eyes reminded me of someone who had seen many terrible things throughout his life. The Jailer seemed older now than ever before right at this moment...
"With Every Freedom There Comes A Price, Which Some Are Not Willing To Pay, Do You Understand The Consequences?"
"Of All These Years In My Life, I Have Finally Learnt The One Thing That I Should Have Long Ago. Everything Has A Price, And Yes, I Am Willing To Pay Anything For Freedom From This Dark Hole" I answered coolly, meeting his gaze for the first time for this conversation.
The Jailer held my gaze for a moment, then abruptly stood up.
"Then Be Free, And Live Once More"
~Buying Freedom, The Catharsis, By Song Lam~
"What Do You Want In Life? What Do You Hope To Achieve? What Would You Gain From Release?"
I thought carefully as I prepared my answer knowing that one word could send me back never to see the daylight again. Never to see Her again.... Then, the words formed on my lips and flowed out without effort...
"Love, Loss, Happiness And Grief, I've Had All Of Those, What I Want Now Is Freedom. To Soar Without Any Chains Bound To My Aching Feet, That Is My Only Desire"
As I said that, his face grew haggard and his eyes reminded me of someone who had seen many terrible things throughout his life. The Jailer seemed older now than ever before right at this moment...
"With Every Freedom There Comes A Price, Which Some Are Not Willing To Pay, Do You Understand The Consequences?"
"Of All These Years In My Life, I Have Finally Learnt The One Thing That I Should Have Long Ago. Everything Has A Price, And Yes, I Am Willing To Pay Anything For Freedom From This Dark Hole" I answered coolly, meeting his gaze for the first time for this conversation.
The Jailer held my gaze for a moment, then abruptly stood up.
"Then Be Free, And Live Once More"
~Buying Freedom, The Catharsis, By Song Lam~
Love The World
One day you'll stop and reflect about life, you'll remember everything good and everything bad.
You'll remember the laughter and the tears, the joys and the heartaches. You'll remember every moment of achievement and every moment of disappointment.
When you think of the bad times, you'll start to think that life hasn't been fair to you and you wish that you could go back and do it again. We all do....
But then remember the good times and the times where you've laughed so hard that it hurt, whether it was with friends, ex friends or family, the times where a few words would set your heart racing.
That makes us hesitate, and wonder if we would change all that but many of us still would. We all have regrets in life and things we wish we could have done or said which may or may not have made our lives better.
Maybe we lost a friend that we wished we still had, or maybe we wished we saved someone who we could have. Either way we all know that that chance is something we will never get in our lifetime and that the mistakes we have made will be with us forever until we are gone.
But we must remember that so are the good times, we can learn from the past and acknowledge the things that we have done wrong and right. We can be proud of our talents and achievements and we can change our mistakes by not repeating them. Life moves on with or without us, the best thing we can do is hold on and let it carry us through our journey and learn which decisions to make and to accept that we are wrong sometimes.
After all, we are all human in every way no matter how we look, or how we act, we are all the same in the end.
Cherish every moment of life and dont let a single second be wasted because who knows what could happen then.
Love The World, By Song Lam
You'll remember the laughter and the tears, the joys and the heartaches. You'll remember every moment of achievement and every moment of disappointment.
When you think of the bad times, you'll start to think that life hasn't been fair to you and you wish that you could go back and do it again. We all do....
But then remember the good times and the times where you've laughed so hard that it hurt, whether it was with friends, ex friends or family, the times where a few words would set your heart racing.
That makes us hesitate, and wonder if we would change all that but many of us still would. We all have regrets in life and things we wish we could have done or said which may or may not have made our lives better.
Maybe we lost a friend that we wished we still had, or maybe we wished we saved someone who we could have. Either way we all know that that chance is something we will never get in our lifetime and that the mistakes we have made will be with us forever until we are gone.
But we must remember that so are the good times, we can learn from the past and acknowledge the things that we have done wrong and right. We can be proud of our talents and achievements and we can change our mistakes by not repeating them. Life moves on with or without us, the best thing we can do is hold on and let it carry us through our journey and learn which decisions to make and to accept that we are wrong sometimes.
After all, we are all human in every way no matter how we look, or how we act, we are all the same in the end.
Cherish every moment of life and dont let a single second be wasted because who knows what could happen then.
Love The World, By Song Lam
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