So many things have happened in the past few days. I've built a house for unfortunate people, I've been to the most perfect place in the world without my loved one, I've injured myself countless times on this trip and thats only the starting.
Along this trip, I've also found so many things that are bad, hard to name them all but they're there. Some of them physically, and some of them emotional. All of them affected me really badly.
Something recent made me realise, that no matter how much it may seem to be at any point in time, life isn't perfect. Even when you've found the one person that you love truly and that person is someone who makes your world complete and "perfect" it never really is. Life doesnt hand things to you on a silver platter and say, "Hey, no more surpises ok? lets call it even and from now on, you're set" no such thing. Life always wants to surprise us, to shock us when we least expect it and continuously tries to break us.
Face it, life wasnt designed to be fair, if it was, then the world would have no poverty, no starvation, no wars or no deaths. Life would be one fairytale after the next. Life was designed to test us, to sieve out the ones who have the determination to suceed and change their world for the better from those who get impaled upon life's sword and perish.
The thing is, although life isn't perfect and we cannot expect it to be given to us so simply, we cannot just sit there and let life throw all the punches. We are here, to make use of the time we have here, to attempt to fulfil our dreams whether it be to become rich, to change the world, to find that one person you love, anything to be content. We must follow those dreams, and stop life and make our lives, how we want it.
Life can't be pre planned for us, but we can at least make a sketch of our futures and use that as a guide for what we will become. True, we will face life's many ups and downs, enjoy the highlights and die within from the disappointments, cherish the moments that we love, and try to forget those that we loathe...But in the end Life isn't perfect, it never starts out that way, but that's what we can do, We can strive, to make life perfect, in our own ways, make it perfect, in our own eyes and make it perfect, for ourselves as individuals...
Love you all
Song Lam
Friday, July 9, 2010
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
~Think Life Through~
My world crumbled around me, a gaping hole where my emotions once ran through...Something that I thought I once knew, that I once believed in, died and vanished blown away like ashes in the wind. My eyes teared up for the first time in so long, and I felt that for once, I could cry the tears I wanted to. That's how I felt about it.
I wanted so much, to break it, as much as it broke me, break it until i could forget about it and leave it in a smoking mess, crying and desolate, lonely as it was before I found it. My anger was so scary, I didnt know what was happening to me, my hurt was so much compared to the small words of comfort that my friends offered me.
They told me to throw it away, and to leave it lying where it was and forget about it, to leave all of my memories behind,and let the waves of time wash it away to heal me. But somehow I felt so wrong about this, somehow I had felt that there was another way,there had to be after all that I had been through to get where I am today, I couldnt even fix a broken string? It couldnt be...
I walked along the beach that night, wading in the ocean letting my thoughts mull through my head like a never ending story, wishing that somehow it wasnt true and that my connection, my string was still intact. My anger still pulsed through me, like a poison burning away the adrenaline that I had for it, marring my want and need for it.
Then I read something that my special friend told me, so recently, something that I always treasure in my heart and in my soul, something that made me, calm down, and just think about things as they went... The string was broken, but that was a long time ago, where I didnt understand what I loved about it. But the string is actually no longer broken, it was repaired and made stronger such a long time ago, just like my love for another person has grown and been made stronger..
I almost let my anger take over me and destroy what makes my life a purposeful one. Something that I could never truly destroy, and if I did I would regret it for the rest of my life because it's one of a kind...
What i'm saying is that, in our lives, there will be so many things that other people do, that we will hate and have a rage at, things that we will want to spite them and hurt them as much as they hurt us and destroy somthing precious to them. but if we let our anger get in the way and blind us to what we would forever regret, then the world becomes a hateful place, one with no forgiveness and no happiness. I'm saying, don't let anger take control, stop and take control of anger, clear your head, however you can, and then think it through, is it really worth losing something, that you shouldnt have to? Is it worth the moment of pleasure for a lifetime of sadness and regret? And you'll come to the same conclusion as I did a long time ago... No..I don't think it is...
Love you all
Song Lam
I wanted so much, to break it, as much as it broke me, break it until i could forget about it and leave it in a smoking mess, crying and desolate, lonely as it was before I found it. My anger was so scary, I didnt know what was happening to me, my hurt was so much compared to the small words of comfort that my friends offered me.
They told me to throw it away, and to leave it lying where it was and forget about it, to leave all of my memories behind,and let the waves of time wash it away to heal me. But somehow I felt so wrong about this, somehow I had felt that there was another way,there had to be after all that I had been through to get where I am today, I couldnt even fix a broken string? It couldnt be...
I walked along the beach that night, wading in the ocean letting my thoughts mull through my head like a never ending story, wishing that somehow it wasnt true and that my connection, my string was still intact. My anger still pulsed through me, like a poison burning away the adrenaline that I had for it, marring my want and need for it.
Then I read something that my special friend told me, so recently, something that I always treasure in my heart and in my soul, something that made me, calm down, and just think about things as they went... The string was broken, but that was a long time ago, where I didnt understand what I loved about it. But the string is actually no longer broken, it was repaired and made stronger such a long time ago, just like my love for another person has grown and been made stronger..
I almost let my anger take over me and destroy what makes my life a purposeful one. Something that I could never truly destroy, and if I did I would regret it for the rest of my life because it's one of a kind...
What i'm saying is that, in our lives, there will be so many things that other people do, that we will hate and have a rage at, things that we will want to spite them and hurt them as much as they hurt us and destroy somthing precious to them. but if we let our anger get in the way and blind us to what we would forever regret, then the world becomes a hateful place, one with no forgiveness and no happiness. I'm saying, don't let anger take control, stop and take control of anger, clear your head, however you can, and then think it through, is it really worth losing something, that you shouldnt have to? Is it worth the moment of pleasure for a lifetime of sadness and regret? And you'll come to the same conclusion as I did a long time ago... No..I don't think it is...
Love you all
Song Lam
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